A dream that I should not forget

Okay, I understand this post should have been kept personal, but I'd like to keep this as a memory and for me to remember this again in the future, I'm gonna post it here on my blog. So for those who are not interested, you may skip this post. ^^

Well, everything seems to be a very vivid scene for me, but I'll try to recall bits of pieces of it. ^^ It started on a scene where I was with my friend whom I went together with in Korea last time. We were trying to explore the area ( I believe we are in Korea on my dream), then while we are taking pictures of the scenery, suddenly it snowed. Since we don't have winter season here on our country, once again I was amazed by it and decided to take a video instead of picture only. I filmed the sky while the snow is falling. In my dream I was so ecstatic to witness the snowing part. My friend was like having this okay-do-enjoy-what-your-doing look. ^^ After a while, we went to a certain place where some girls are also like waiting for someone to come. My friend and I prepared our cameras and I even told her to capture the moment. Then, a black van came and we all started recording the moment. To my surprise 4 guys came out the van. Should I start naming them? ㅋㅋㅋ They are Kim Hyun Joong, Heo Young Saeng, Kim Kyu Jong, and Kim Hyung Jun. ^^ I can only recall the clothes of Hyun Joong and Young Saeng. Hyun Joong was wearing a cap and I think that's brown jacket, while Young Saeng was wearing white and also wearing a cap. I could still remember Hyun Joong looked at my way and smiled and waved (like what he did during his arrival at Haneda Airport recently). I was wondering where Jung Min could be.  Hyun Joong talked first in Korean but the scene started to fade away and the scene went to a room where a guy was sleeping while having a book on his hand. (I guess he slept while reading that book). As the image gets closer to the guy who is sleeping, I recognized him immediately. It was Park Jung Min! He was still sleeping! In my mind I was telling myself, "Wasn't there any stylist to wake him up?!" I remember I was trying to kick the bed so at least he would notice it and woke him up. And then he opened his eyes, trying to think maybe... after a few seconds he opened his eyes widely as if he recalls something... that he should be somewhere together with the other 4 boys! So he got up as quickly as he can and ran outside. Strangely, the scene started to fade away once again and went to the location of the four boys. Kyu Jong just finished talking and they were about to leave. Most of the fans were sad and others are crying. I'm actually one of the fans who cried. After a few walks, Young Saeng was the one who was left. He removed his cap. His hair was like during his 'Music & Lyrics' guesting but make it a lot shorter. He was sad and about to cry. I was infront together with other fans. I reached out my hand to him and he reached out his hand to touch my hand. Then he walked away. Do you have any idea what scene I was in? Yes, I was at the send off for Young Saeng for his military service. The last part of my dream was me saying' I was able to held his hand before he enters the military.' Then I shook the hand of my friend so she can feel as if she held Young Saeng. Then I woke up. 

I don't know if I should be happy seeing all 5 boys in my dream, or should I be sad because of Young Saeng entering the military soon. Let's just wait and see what will happen then.

A dream with Kim Hyun Joong

I just woke up and immediately went to my computer. ^^ If you have been my follower and reader since I started blogging, you know that I usually share and post my dreams here to make sure I remember and reminisce about it in the future. ^^ Others may skip this part since it might not interest you.  ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

Anyways, it's just a short dream.  The venue is somehow a concert with Hyun Joong, and I was with my friend Cheezeemelt, seated in front and at the area where Hyun Joong usually walks towards the fans. (I haven't been into his one of his Asia Tour Fanmeetings so maybe that's why I've dreamt about it ㅋㅋㅋ) My dream started in the middle of the concert. ^^ Hyun Joong was already walking the way towards his fans. 

photo credits: @SGKWave

He was singing his new single from his upcoming album 'Heat'. (I don't know the songs yet on his new album that's why I was surprised that I was hearing it on my dream. ^^) The crowd was a bit silent since they cannot sing with it, and since it's a new song. It's somehow like a slow R&B type of thing so he wasn't dancing. As he walks towards the fans, he reached out his hand to one of the fans sitting, and to my surprise, that fan hesitated, and didn't even tried to take Hyun Joong's hand! (silly fan!) Hyun Joong was a bit embarrassed so he walk back and walk towards the fans seating at front. Me and Cheezeemelt stood up and reached out our hand so he can shake his hands to us. Hyun Joong first shook hands with my friend, than when it was my turn, he shook my hand, and even pinched my cheeks! ^^ (a dream...a dream.. gyaaaaahhh so happy!^^) I literally was very happy with it! ^^ Then, when it's already time for the autograph signing with fans, me and my friend were still on our seats because the line is very long. So we decided to stand in line later. Suddenly, he showed up in the front, waiting until he was called to start the signing. And he's in front of us! ^^

I told myself I'm gonna talk to him and won't miss the chance. So I immediately called out his name. ^^

Me: Hyun Joong-ssi, 너무 너무 너무 좋아요~!!!!! ♥ (I really really really like you)

Hyun Joong: 나도 좋아요. *smiles* (I like you too)

Me (happy and excited): 진짜? (really?)

Hyun Joong: *nods and smiles*

Me: *smiles* 행복해 ~ (i'm happy)

My friend, Hyun Joong and I continued chatting but I totally forgot what our conversation at that time. All I could recall was he said he was trying to learn English and Cheezeemelt was suggesting some English words to use. ^^ But then, he was suddenly called out to start the fansigning. So he left.... and I woke up. >.<


Well, although it's a bit short, but the moment I opened my eyes, a smile was immediately on my face. ^^ I miss him terribly, and his recent fanmeetings is making me miss him even more.T_T But with this dream, it allowed me to be on his fanmeet which I am wanting to be a part of. ^^ Glad to have had this dream to start my day. ^^

Another dream that must not be forgotten

It's already 6:00am here in Manila, and I am already awake. The moment I opened my eyes, I immediately opened the computer, and decided to write about the dream I should not forget. It was actually a good dream, but I know it would not come true, so might as well take note of it so I can remember it in the future. 

If my memory was correct, me and my friends were in a certain venue. Everyone was gathered in one place, as if we're waiting for someone to come. A photographer was standing by, and it seems that we will be having a photo session. Suddenly, someone comes walking towards us. When I looked at the person, it was Kim Hyun Joong! Seems like we are in a meet-and-greet event, and we are about to take a photo with him. I was surprised to see how gorgeous he is, even though it was just a dream. He walked passed at me and stood at the back of two of my friends. He placed his hands in the shoulders of my friends and was ready to take a picture. Then, a certain fan embraced his waist who stood at the back of him. He was shocked and was smiling and looked at me. I was looking at his eyes, and I saw he was wearing a blue contact lenses. ( I could still remember his stare ^^) A security grabbed the fan and took her away.  Hyun Joong sat on a chair, feeling down, and spoke in English (in my dream it seems he was trying to speak in English but not in a fluent way since he don't know English that much), "That girl was following me all the time, as if she was stalking me. Everywhere I go, she's always there." I reached my hand to him, trying to comfort him. He held my hand and was still feeling upset on the situation. He stood and still felt disappointed. He spoke again to his manager and said "Can I tell this to my mom?" He sat on the floor, feeling lonely, down, disappointed. I could not bear looking at him, so I walked towards him, sat also on the floor, and said 'Hyun Joong I have something to say.'  He looked at me,  held my hand again, and we both stood up. He was still holding my hand when I said 'We, your fans, are all grateful that you are our Idol." He embraced me in an instant, and I could feel his cheeks were touching mine. I felt his pain he was feeling inside. So I said, "Always remember, we are all here for you" with my eyes closed. After I have said that, suddenly I felt his lips. He was actually kissing me already. Then I woke up. When I  looked at the clock on my cellphone, time is 5:01am ^^ 

I know for a fact that this would not happen in reality. But still, I'm glad that even just in my dreams, it was possible that he also has feelings for me. If I could only stay in my dreams, I would. For there are no security guards, no language barriers, no worries. I'm currently listening to the song 'In My Dreams', and I love the lyrics where it says:

"If only I could stay asleep, at least I could pretend you're thinking of me....
You see in my dreams you love me...."

credits as tagged

Her dream that swept me off my feet... ^^

I know this post will not get any interest for some readers. But I really wanted to write this since this story made me smile through out my whole shift. ^^This is about a story of my friend's dream, which she shared to me (since I am involved), and now, I am sharing it with you.(Actually she told me not to tell this to anyone since it is quite embarrassing, but since I'd only write it and will not literally telling it to other people, so I think she can consider it. ^^

Well, to start the story, remember Hyun Joong went here in the Philippines last June? In her dream, Hyun Joong came back here in our country, together with his 4 other members. They were in a hotel to hold a press conference. My friend and I went to the hotel together with our other friends. While we were at the lobby, it was announced that limited fans can go inside the room of the presscon. At first, I was the only one included, but we begged to the security guard if my friend can come along since her boyfriend is one of the artists. ( She is Kim Kyu Jong biased ^^) The guard let us in and we were so happy. When we were already inside, my friend asked one of the coordinator if we could seat in front because we're afraid that our boyfriends might not see us. The girl immediately agreed, and even accompanied us to seat in front. By the time we were seated, the coordinator approached Kyu and whispered something on his ear, and then Kyu passed along the message to Hyun Joong. 

After that, they both looked at us and then they smiled. 

We were wondering why they smiled at us (and of course, we're shocked!) During the presscon, fans can asked questions. And so I decided to ask a question to Hyun Joong. I asked him if he has someone special in his life right now. With the help of the translator, Hyun Joong answered, 'Yes, I already have a girlfriend, ... and she is standing in front of me.' (omo omo omo..♥) We were thinking at that time, 'Probably that answer was taught by the coordinator'. Presscon has ended and then we went back to our room, (which is in the hotel where they were staying) to relay the story to our friends who wasn't able to get inside.


Next day, it was already their concert. My friend and I were sitting next to each other. In the middle of the concert, there was a certain segment where 5 of them will pick a fan from the audience to be their partner while they will be singing their song. 

Hyun Joong was the first one to speak, and he said he wanted his girlfriend to be his partner, then suddenly he looked at me. 

Kyu Jong also picked his girlfriend and then looked at my friend. (Sorry,my friend doesn't know who was picked by Baby, Mal and Saengie ^^) We got up the stage,and they started to sing 'Confession'. (To tell you honestly, when I first heard this song, which is a year ago, I told myself if someone would sing this song for me, I would definitely be his girlfriend for sure! How ironic, Hyun Joong sang this to me in this dream *heaven*) After the song, they gave us flowers. The host announced that the 5 lucky fans who was picked will have a chance to go on a dinner date with the 5 guys! That even made us happier! After the concert, we waited at the lobby because that is where they will pick us up. The plan was to have a dinner date, but the other 3 wants to go out on a disco. So that means, it was only my friend, Kyu Jong, me and Hyun Joong who was able to make it to the dinner date. (feels like flying!) 


When  4 us were already inside the van, Hyun Joong asked if me and my friend have been friends for a long time because he notice how close we are. Of course with the help of the translator, my friend told him that we have known each other for quite a while already. Kyu Jong asked if my friend and I are of the same age. My funny friend answered 'She's older than me'. 

When we reached the restaurant, the place were reserved for the four of us only. The restaurant was located at the rooftop, so you could just imagine how romantic that was! There was even someone playing a violin! When we were already seated, the boys ordered for us. While eating, we talked about everything and anything about love, about life. Then they asked how come me and my friend doesn't have any boyfriend. I honestly answered, 'How can we possibly have a boyfriend if we are in love with you?' (super cheesy^^) Then they smiled. ^^


The food was served at the table,..

and what surprised me was Hyun Joong was very sweet towards me.He even sliced the meat for me.( which is very unusual if you really know his personality) After eating, me and my friend went over to see the view. Kyu Jong, who is exceptionally sweet, told my friend that the song being played in the violin seems to be a nice sweet song for dancing.

And then he asked my friend for a dance. They danced, which I know made my friend very very happy and in love. ^^

Then there was a game to play. The one who can stands the stare of his partner for the longest time wins. First was me and Hyun Joong. My friend told me that while we were doing the game, Hyun Joong's face was leaning closer and closer to my face. I wasn't able to stand it. Same goes with my friend. But they were able to do it for a longer time so they won. 

Unfortunately, their manager called and informed them that they need to get back to the hotel since they need to leave early the next day. By the time we reached the hotel, we were all inside the elevator. But my friend and I were the first to got off the elevator. When we were about to leave, Hyun Joong and Kyu Jong suddenly got off. Hyun Joong told us that they had a great time and he hopes to see us again. Hyun Joong gave me a kiss on the cheek (♥♥♥) and Kyu Jong gave my friend a kiss on the cheek also. And then they bid farewell.

By the time they left, I started screaming out loud. (of course!) They heard my scream and decided to go back. Hyun Joong asked what's wrong. My friend told him.... 'I stepped on her foot'.  ^^

Dreaming of you...again.. ^^

[Warning: This post is about a dream and won't probably interest you. Sorry if you will be bored with the story kekekeke]

I had a wonderful dream last night. It's about Kim Hyun Joong ( again kekeke ). The first scene that I still remember was we were inside a room, Hyun Joong was inside, sitting on a chair with a long table in front. Seems like there is a fan signing event since there are a lot of people holding the SS501 Destination Album Special Edition. I remember I was holding 2 albums. One for me and the other for my friend.When it was my turn to approach him, I asked him if he can sign the 2 albums. He didn't hesitate and immediately said " Yes ". I gave my cd and he signed it, when he was about to sign the second one, I gave him a piece of paper stating the name of my friend. He wrote it nicely and signed it. After my turn, I realized " How come I didn't gave my name for him to write it as well? So stupid of me ". I tried to fall in line again but I wasn't able to get it since he already signed it. I was so sad. I went back to the hotel instead. But to my surprise, the next scene I saw was Hyun Joong was in a room with some friends and some fans, including me. ^^ Then Hyun Joong suggested he would pick from the bowl a name and will ask questions. And my name was picked! ( A dream FAR from reality! kekeke )  The question was, what is my ideal boyfriend? I answered, with Hyun Joong in my mind, someone who loves black since I was wearing black that time, someone who is brave enough to fight for me, and someone who can make me laugh without him knowing it. Then he said it's time to sleep. He was just in the next room, and as we turned off the lights, we saw an image of him... ( Rated R) since he mentioned in his previous interviews that he don't usually sleep with his clothes on, but of course on that dream he has some sheet covers for the you-know-part. And then suddenly I woke up. Good thing I woke up!!! I don't want to see a scene that is not applicable for youngsters kekekeke. 
Hmmm,.. that's about it. Told you, it won't be interesting. kekeke Just want to share every moment I have with Hyun Joong, even if it is just in a dream. Miss him terribly...

Dreamt of him...but...

Okay you may skip this post again since this will only concern my dream last night ^^. Well who else could it possibly be? None other than bf-shhi Kim Hyun Joong! But it wasn't exactly what I was hoping for. To start it off, I saw buin ( yes, buin from we got married, the partner of Hyun Joong )  Wearing white blouse and white mini skirt ( I can still remember the clothes they were wearing )   I was with my Triple S sisters and we asked where is buin going? She was with her personal assistant, and we were told that buin will be just strolling around. Out of curiosity, we followed her. And it turn out, she was meeting somebody.... it was Hyun Joong, wearing the same clothes when he was here in the Philippines for the meet and greet. Me and my friends hid behind the big rock, looking closely what they will be doing. It seems like they were meeting each other not for business purposes... you know already what I mean. The moment they sat together, Hyun Joong placed his hands to where buin hands is... ( just thinking of this scenario makes my heart beat faster ) I can see the smile in Hyun Joong's face, a smile that shows that he is really happy. We were all gossiping about it when suddenly, a scene that I am not prepared see,... Hyun Joong kissing buin... ( the thought of it makes my heart aches a lot T_T) My friends and I were all shocked and we all cried and shouted at the same time.  Luckily, I woke up from that dream.  I can't imagine staying on that dream for a longer time....

Hyun Joong-ah in my dreams

For those who will be visiting or reading this blog entry, I suggest you skip this part since this was only one of my many dreams with Kim Hyun Joong and I do believe that you will be bored reading this one. kekekeke
         Well actually, I really don't recall the whole scenario. But what I can only remember is I am at the hotel where he was staying. Probably, it was during his stay here in the Philippines. And what I am surprised about that dream was I was in the same room with Hyun Joong! ( Definitely a dream! ) Then, I heard someone talking, as I tried to look to whom the voice belongs, whoalla! It's him sitting at the couch, talking to someone on the phone! His hair was like from the time when he left Philippines and he was wearing a gray shirt. If I can remember correctly, I felt very lucky to be staying at the same room with him, happy, excited... then curiosity sets in. To whom is he speaking with? Looks like someone special with the tone of voice that he was using. And mind you, he was talking in Korean in my dream and I was listening carefully. ( As if I would understand a thing what he was saying ) I was about to approach him, suddenly I woke up! ( nice! grrrrrr ) It was just a short encounter but I found myself smiling as I open my eyes. Who wouldn't be happy to see Hyun Joong in her dreams? What a great way to start my day and my week!

credits: Yes + 第一个喜欢你@BAIDU

waiting for them to come

It has been a while since I posted something here.I was kinda busy at work and at the same time with the fanvid I was making for the boys.Well, there is no news about them yet. Probably their supposedly come back would be at the end of this month. I really missed them so much especially Kim Hyun Joong. And speaking of him, I dreamt of him last night. Want to know what the story is? Well, it is kinda short and all I can remember was he was being questioned about whom he is with right now. Meaning, if he has a girlfriend. And the next thing that happened was he was running with a girl and they went in a car. He bid goodbye to the girl and telling her where exactly she should go. I was really hurt with that scenario. I know that someday there is a possibility for it to happen. But I hope that I'll be ready by then. Now that I'm thinking about it, my heart starts to ache... I should start learning to control my feelings...soon.

Anyway, here are the fanvids I have just made. Hope you'll like them. ^__________^