i passed!!!!

This weekend was very hectic for me. Defense day on Saturday, and review day on Sunday for my finals in Oracle. Sheeeez! I wasn't expecting anything, but luckily, I got a grade of 1.0 in defense, and I passed the finals with a grade of 92%! I was overwhelmed with the result. That is why I'm updating my blog to share the good news! ( even though no one is reading this.kekeke) The only sad part is starting tomorrow, I'll be in a graveyard shift. Hopefully I'll be able to surpass the late night work and training. But whenever I think of Hyun Joong, I think I can do anything! ^^  He's the only source of my strength. Okay, enough of these cheesiness. Saranghaeyo Kim Hyun Joong♥

been a long day

One day consists of only 24 hours. I've been awake for at least 15 hours but with such time, I've done so many things. To start off, I went to City Hall to claim my occupational permit since I need for my pre-employment requirements. Finally I was hired by one of the international companies, but it's a call center. No worries since I need finances for my expenses and for buying goodies of SS501! kekeke ^_^. I reached home around lunch time. After eating, I immediately checked my mail for the presentation in my defense on saturday. (nervous nervous). I also watched ss501 mpick since the title is about leader's birthday! (can't get enough of him!♥) I thought nothing can go wrong today. But later in the evening, I had a fight with my dad. I ended up crying while eating dinner! Luckily, went I went to my room, I heard songs by Kim Hyun Joong, which made me feel comforted by him.  Miss him and LOVE him so so much!!!!

By the way, just like to share the videos I've made to Kim HyunJoong and For the whole group as well.

i am so full

Just got home from malling and having dinner with my sister and her boyfriend. We ate at Johnny Ricketts, a store recommended by my sister. She said that burgers there are fabulous! I've tried it and she's right! The burger's size is already good for two people, the fries and drinks are refillable, not to mention the crews are dancing in the jukebox song every 30 mins! So the price is definitely worth it. You'll feel that you are in U.S. because of the ambiance. The restaurant's concept was somewhat like a diner, the kind of place that you see in American movies! Here are some pictures I've taken while I'm at the middle of eating ^^

I ordered bacon cheese single! yum yum

By the way, earlier I saw a site where a certain genie can guess who are you thinking. I was curious if he will be able to get it right. And the result is?...... (dan dan dan daaaaannn...)  Kim Hyun Joong! Wow! He's definitely right! kekeke There was never a day that i didn't think of him! How could I? If he is the reason for me to be happy!!! ♥♥♥

sad, depressed, aching heart... all at the same time

            It's been some time since I am feeling this emotion. I don't recommend this post to be read by those people who don't want to feel lonely. I don't want you to be in the same shoes as mine.
            I've watched the video that made leader Kim Hyun Joong cried in the last persona encore. It shows the previous performances of their group and also the messages that their fans gave to them. It was so touching, knowing that they are celebrity, but they appreciated the vid and that even made them cry. The message was translated by one of the Triple S (fanclub name) and there Kim Hyun Joong said that after all these years, he's grown into an adult and the fans are still with him. He hopes that the fans will stay with him till he grows old, till the day he cannot walk. It was only the second time I've seen him cry, and I found myself crying with him. I've watched it over and over, which made me cry even more. I tried to divert my attention so that I won't feel bad, but then I saw this blog that has posted a fan account regarding her encounter with the last concert. There  she said that it hurts her a lot to see Kim Hyun Joong sad and crying.She felt that he KHJ is already tired but must keep going for the fans. That she wanted to say to him that it's okay if you want to stop now, she will understand if he wants to be free and be happy. Tears keep rolling down on my face now. It won't stop. Stubborn tears. I felt her sadness for him. That also made me think that if you really love the person, sometimes you have to let them go for their own happiness no matter how hard it is. I don't know if I can bear that day when I have to let him go to be his ownself, to stop loving him so he can choose the person he wants to be with forever, to be free... Just the thought of it makes me want to break down and cry....T_T


*Listening to Wings of the world by SS501

SS501 - Wings Of The World  (English Translation)

One day in my dreams, a small candle light approached me
Then I would wake up unable to remember that dream

That short introduction and the small wind, I cannot forget now

I remember, we were the sky's day
The natural world and for that dream
We can do it, always the same dream, the happy smile, a full place
We can make it

With the night sky and the remaining starlight, please give it to me
And I confessed to you with your eyes closed and the wide smile

With short breaths, the smal greeting, I cannot forget it now

I remember, we were the sky's day
The natural world and for that dream
We can do it, always the same dream, the happy smile, a full place
We can make it

If its tiring, take a rest, and fold those weary wings
Laugh, can you see that small candlight? That world?

I remember, we were the sky's day
The natural world and for that dream
We can do it, always the same dream, the happy smile, a full place
We can make it

stressful day

Earlier this day, I plan to do many things like researching for my mba subject, at the same time download and convert videos of SS501 into dvd format, also to create a fanvid for Kim Hyun Joong and his group. But then suddenly, an unexpected thing happened. My father got mad to our maid just because she wanted to go the hospital to visit his brother. Although she doesn't know yet what his brother's sickness, she said she might come back tomorrow at 9pm. That is the reason why my father got irritated. His voice was so loud that until now, as I type, my hands are shaking. They couldn't agree to each one's decision. It is so hard to be in that position, when you have to let the two person calm down. The situation ended when I told my father that I will allow the maid to go but until 8am only. Now, eventhough the commotion is over, i couldn't start the things that I plan to do because I feel so stressed. Good thing I have this blog to share my thoughts. You see, I don't have any boyfriend or friends to talk to.Well, I have friends, but it would be awkward to tell them about this incident. Most probably, they would laugh at me or would be busy to hear my nonsense story. At times like this, I would just like to sit down and look for the things that would make me feel okay. This is the disadvantage of being alone... you have no one to share your emotions or feelings. I would like to think that Kim Hyun Joong would be there to make me laugh, make me forget the things that worries me. But he is just a dream that will never come true. At the end of the day, reality sets in. He... is.... a.... celebrity. Nothing more than that.  He would remain to be in the television... because that is where he belongs...... T_T


*Listening to I'm Thankful Because It's You by VOS