Sunday, February 28, 2010

excited, depressed, sad all at the same time

Today is the last day for Persona Encore in Seoul for the group SS501. It is a 2 day concert which started yesterday. I wasn't able to hear it on radio but today I'll try. I'm a little excited about it because I wanted to hear them sing live again. While waiting for the time, I tried to browse some pictures from yesterday's event. Well, they all look good and happy. But then something caught my attention... I saw leader Kim Hyun Joong wearing the necklace that he used to wear from previous concert and presscon. My wild imagination tells me that he is already in love with somebody else. You know why? His personality hates cheesy things like couple t-shirts or anything that would show affection to the opposite gender. But then now, he wears a double heart necklace. Call me crazy but it hurts me. Although I know that he deserves to be happy but i can't help it. This stupid darn feelings that I have won't seem to stop. That's why when situation like this comes, I end up hurting.  Here's the lyrics of the song that I am currently listening to.

"You're In Love"

Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.

And now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be

Aah, my love, Aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'Cause I want you to be happy
You're in love
And I know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh I could have died.

But now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be


I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... Ooh, you're in love

Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

And here's his picture wearing the necklace. credits to photobucket. :'(

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

happy birthday kim kyu jong!

Whoa! Time flies so fast right? One blink, it's already 2010. Another blink, it's Kyu Jong's 24th Birthday!!! He's already getting a year older without us noticing it because he still looks young for his age. Well, I only wish him the best for this year and also for the coming years. I hope he stays healthy despite the busy schedules and the concerts. He is one great person, a loving son and brother, and an idol that is sure to be admired by everyone. If I were to describe him in one sentence, maybe it would be "Your ideal guy" because he is considered to be a complete package. I am grateful that I have gotten a chance to know him even though it's only through the internet and videos from you tube. I know that you will be celebrating this day with your loved ones and i know that it will be a happy one. So enjoy the rest of the day Kyu jong and once again, Saeng il chuka hamnida!♥ (Happy Birthday in english)

credits: photobucket

Saturday, February 20, 2010

amazed ^^

Whoa! I am so shocked today. You won't believe it, but it's out! The Philippine Daily Inquirer today published a fan account regarding her escapade recently at the Persona in Bangkok of SS501! This would be another huge exposure for the boys. For sure, it would increase their already high popularity. here is the clip of that news. Credits goes to Elisa Claustro of Philippine Daily Inquirer.A huge thanks to you. You go girl!!!

Confessions of a ‘ K-pop’ fangirl


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I felt the familiar stirrings of a schoolgirl crush—which led to Google … on to catching their tour
I THOUGHT I’D BE A LOT OF THINGS at 25, but never was it in my wildest dream to be a fangirl.

I was Bangkok-bound to watch five cute Korean guys sing and dance onstage, I couldn’t help but wonder if I had already gone too deep into K-pop (Korean pop) “fangirldom.”

My obsession started with “Boys Over Flowers,” a Korean show, where I was immediately drawn to Jihoo, the quiet, somewhat anti-social member of the famous F4.

Not before long I felt the familiar stirrings of a schoolgirl crush, not only on the character, but also on the man himself.

A quick Google yielded the singer/actor’s name—Kim Hyun Joong or “KHJ” as he is known.

That Google search led to long hours on the Youtube, for anything about KHJ. I would giggle, scream and sigh (yes, in that order) to the chagrin of my mother, who couldn’t really understand what was going on with her supposedly “adult” daughter.

My crush intensified when a work colleague told me that KHJ was also a lead of a boy band named SS501.

So another round of frenzied Googling ensued, and soon, I was downloading songs from SS501. It took me another hour to get all of the other members’ names right.

Seeking sisters

You know how they say misery loves company? This applies to a fangirl who doesn’t have anyone to talk to about her crazy love for K-pop.

Hoping to find other SS501 followers, I joined every online forum I could possibly find. I dropped by message boards, grabbed e-mail addresses, left comments on YouTube. I was desperate to find fans like me.

I stumbled on the website “Triple S Philippines” (TSPH), the local chapter of the band’s official fan club. I hurriedly signed up for the group. It wasn’t like I had won the lottery or anything, but the thought of getting myself out there, to gush, without getting strange looks, created certain excitement.

As insane as this may sound, I felt like I had found a long lost group of friends in TSPH. When I met them in person, I didn’t feel awkwardness, just an overwhelming sense of kinship.

Spend or save?

In the seven months I’ve been an SS501 fan and TSPH-er, I have come to realize that being a fangirl could be expensive.

You have this urge to look for and buy anything with your idol’s name and/or picture—makeshift bookmarks with downloaded images of your idol, T-shirts, original CDs, concert DVDs, photobooks … I’m just about to spend on the Persona Tour.

Serendipity and semi-stalking

I first heard about the Persona Tour in September 2009. In an attempt to revamp SS501’s image and strengthen its presence in Asia, the band lined up concerts in Malaysia, HK and Taiwan.

Some TSPH girls had already crossed the seas to watch the boys live, but a couple wanted to go for seconds (or even thirds!).

Early this year, I became more convinced that I had to go. This was the chance of a lifetime, I told myself, and to let it pass would mean having to live with “what if?” the rest of my life.

One TSPH-er had an extra ticket to the Persona Tour in Bangkok, the final stop. Hotel accommodations had also been taken care of. All I had to do was book my flight, so I did.

I set out for Bangkok, on my own, on Feb. 12. Having had little rest, I caught a cold and arrived in Bangkok, tired, hungry and with bad laryngitis.

Still, my spirits were high as I made my way to Siam Paragon for the press conference. There, I had another realization: being a fangirl is all about waiting.

In the blazing heat, pressed against the bodies of local SS501 fans, my fellow TSPH-ers and I stood patiently and waited for three hours. The boys stayed and talked onstage for 10 minutes. I wasn’t disappointed, although I can’t say I was extremely happy either.

Apart from the fact that I couldn’t scream and shout for KHJ (who looked so hot in a white suit, by the way), my camera doesn’t have enough zoom power, so it was nearly impossible to get good shots.

All the mishaps of the day did not faze me, however. I had high hopes for the concert, and the thought of getting to watch SS501 live was enough to recharge my batteries.

Back in the hotel, there was more waiting to be done. Because we were checked-in in the same place as the boys, we knew there was a good chance to see them before the concert. We waited in the lobby, and after two hours, they finally arrived.

I caught a glimpse of only Kyu Jong and Hyung Joon, but the wait was definitely worth it. Many of the girls dashed after them as they stepped out of the hotel, but I decided to linger and relish the moment.

Seeing stars

After some pre-concert shopping for SS501 merchandise, we headed to the arena. We weren’t far, we weren’t close, but we really didn’t care. We just prepped ourselves for an awesome performance, and that was exactly what we got.

The concert was fun, revealing, sexy and downright entertaining. It also made me see that there really was more to the band than KHJ. Each of them was able to show off his singing and dancing prowess. I was on the edge of my seat the entire time, pushing my voice to the limit and trying to project fangirl jibberish onto the stage. It truly was an experience of a lifetime.

One would think that attending the concert would calm the fiery spirit of this fangirl. On the contrary, it has only fueled it.

On the plane ride home, all I could think about was how much I wanted to see them again (and how it’s about time I got a camera with gazillion optical zoom).

Obsessive as all this may sound to you, being a fangirl has pushed me to accomplish many firsts in my life—from taking a chance on strangers to traveling all by myself, to writing this love piece.

If underneath the craziness lies this potential for great things, I have no qualms about continuing the journey and going even deeper into the wonderful world of fangirldom.


 Again, many thanks to you.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

missing someone ♥

Today i got up early to renew my nbi clearance. I was so sleepy when I got home. Imagine, I slept last night at 1:30am and woke up at 4:30am. 3 hours of sleep! But then i took a nap around 2pm and woke up at 6:30pm to cook dinner. (kekeke) Seems to be an ordinary day, but what makes it different was I'm missing someone. I know, if ever I say the name of that person, there would be eyebrows raising and saying what a pathetic person I am. But what the hell, this is what I feel right now. I miss Kim Hyun Joong, leader of the group SS501, and the only person who inspires me a lot these past few months. I have seen his videos from their recent concert, I also heard that he did something good for a fan lately, and that he is now back in his homeland. (although there are no videos yet that confirms this.) I also saw some pictures of him, wearing the same necklace for different events, which kinda bothers me. I know I know. I am not in the position to feel this way. It hurts, really, knowing that the one you care about has someone else in his life that makes him happy and complete. He deserves it, actually. But sometimes I can't help it, i feel envious to whoever that person be. Sometimes I wish I was born in Seoul, I wish we have the same language, same culture, same status, I wish that he was able to know me, that I was pretty enough to make him notice me. But I know that will never happen. Oh well, I guess the only time I will be able to see him is during sleep, when I am dreaming... See you in my dreams my handsome prince ♥

*Currently listening to his song "Thank You". Here's the English Translation of the song. You'll definitely love the lyrics. It will touch your hearts ^^

Thank You (Komapda) by Kim Hyun Joong
Thank you..
For staying by my side
Walking this road with you

I love u..
The awkward words that I want to say in front of you
Be blessed..
I must let u live well

For meeting someone like me
I’m still lacking in many ways

I will be by your side until the end
I will protect the beautiful you

I pray not to release this hands even if I die
I promise to walk with you until the end of time
Because the extreme love
can be worn out of time
I vow to keep the beautiful memories
And even the days that we cried

For not able to be better
That I am always lacking in some ways

I will protect you until the end even if it’s hard
I will protect the beautiful you

Repeat *)

Only you can forgive my heart
Even though I am imperfect
Even though I am lacking in many ways
I sincerely want you

Even if the days of difficulties were to come
I will not release the two hands that I hold until the end of time
Because the extreme love
can be worn out of time
I vow to keep the beautiful memories
And even the days that we cried

Thank you..
For staying by my side

Sunday, February 14, 2010

a way to celebrate the eve of chinese new year

i had a blast tonight! why? well, it started when i skipped my mba class today for some very important matter. (kekeke) and that is to listen to the live concert of my favorite group, ss501, on the chinese radio! yes, you heard it right! it was live! although the quality was not that good, but to be able to hear the concert was definitely a once in lifetime chance. since they haven't been here in our country, i would say that was my first time hearing them in concert, but hopefully not would be the last. i so so love them very much!!!! if only i would be able to post some pics from the concert, but i'm afraid that i would break some rules or manners when it comes to posting of pictures. if i were to describe what i feel right now, i wanted so badly to see them. they are the reason for me to wake up each day and to inspire me everyday, literally! i dont know how long this admiration or fascination of mine would last. but as of now, i can say that this would last for a very long time! Fighting ss501!!!! Love you all so much! Saranghae!

Friday, February 12, 2010

whew! ^-^

it's been so long since i've visited my blog. i have been busy with a lot of things. first, i've finished my driving lessons. (yehey!) but i haven't tried driving our own car. hehehe. then, my sister and a friend of mine and myself went to a theme park, after that we went to a famous bar. we all had a great time. now, i'm busy looking for videos regarding my favorite korean boy group,ss501. the are about to held a concert in thailand. unfortunately, since i dont have a job, i wasnt able to buy their tickets. (argh!) well, hopefully, they'll visit this country where i am right now. ooppsss, chinese new year is fast approaching. well, i hope everyone would have a properous new year. sae haebok manibaduseyo (happy new year in english) ^^
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