stressful day

Earlier this day, I plan to do many things like researching for my mba subject, at the same time download and convert videos of SS501 into dvd format, also to create a fanvid for Kim Hyun Joong and his group. But then suddenly, an unexpected thing happened. My father got mad to our maid just because she wanted to go the hospital to visit his brother. Although she doesn't know yet what his brother's sickness, she said she might come back tomorrow at 9pm. That is the reason why my father got irritated. His voice was so loud that until now, as I type, my hands are shaking. They couldn't agree to each one's decision. It is so hard to be in that position, when you have to let the two person calm down. The situation ended when I told my father that I will allow the maid to go but until 8am only. Now, eventhough the commotion is over, i couldn't start the things that I plan to do because I feel so stressed. Good thing I have this blog to share my thoughts. You see, I don't have any boyfriend or friends to talk to.Well, I have friends, but it would be awkward to tell them about this incident. Most probably, they would laugh at me or would be busy to hear my nonsense story. At times like this, I would just like to sit down and look for the things that would make me feel okay. This is the disadvantage of being alone... you have no one to share your emotions or feelings. I would like to think that Kim Hyun Joong would be there to make me laugh, make me forget the things that worries me. But he is just a dream that will never come true. At the end of the day, reality sets in. He... is.... a.... celebrity. Nothing more than that.  He would remain to be in the television... because that is where he belongs...... T_T


*Listening to I'm Thankful Because It's You by VOS