Today i got up early to renew my nbi clearance. I was so sleepy when I got home. Imagine, I slept last night at 1:30am and woke up at 4:30am. 3 hours of sleep! But then i took a nap around 2pm and woke up at 6:30pm to cook dinner. (kekeke) Seems to be an ordinary day, but what makes it different was I'm missing someone. I know, if ever I say the name of that person, there would be eyebrows raising and saying what a pathetic person I am. But what the hell, this is what I feel right now. I miss Kim Hyun Joong, leader of the group SS501, and the only person who inspires me a lot these past few months. I have seen his videos from their recent concert, I also heard that he did something good for a fan lately, and that he is now back in his homeland. (although there are no videos yet that confirms this.) I also saw some pictures of him, wearing the same necklace for different events, which kinda bothers me. I know I know. I am not in the position to feel this way. It hurts, really, knowing that the one you care about has someone else in his life that makes him happy and complete. He deserves it, actually. But sometimes I can't help it, i feel envious to whoever that person be. Sometimes I wish I was born in Seoul, I wish we have the same language, same culture, same status, I wish that he was able to know me, that I was pretty enough to make him notice me. But I know that will never happen. Oh well, I guess the only time I will be able to see him is during sleep, when I am dreaming... See you in my dreams my handsome prince ♥
*Currently listening to his song "Thank You". Here's the English Translation of the song. You'll definitely love the lyrics. It will touch your hearts ^^
Thank you..
For staying by my side
Nervous..
Walking this road with you
I love u..
The awkward words that I want to say in front of you
Be blessed..
I must let u live well
Sorry..
For meeting someone like me
Painful..
I’m still lacking in many ways
I will be by your side until the end
I will protect the beautiful you
*)
I pray not to release this hands even if I die
I promise to walk with you until the end of time
Because the extreme love
can be worn out of time
I vow to keep the beautiful memories
And even the days that we cried
Sorry..
For not able to be better
Painful
That I am always lacking in some ways
I will protect you until the end even if it’s hard
I will protect the beautiful you
Repeat *)
Only you can forgive my heart
Even though I am imperfect
Even though I am lacking in many ways
I sincerely want you
Even if the days of difficulties were to come
I will not release the two hands that I hold until the end of time
Because the extreme love
can be worn out of time
I vow to keep the beautiful memories
And even the days that we cried
Thank you..
For staying by my side
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